Friday, January 29, 2010
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
I didn’t join 24hour Fitness. And I didn’t weigh myself today. But....
It’s my BIRTHDAY!
I am officially 23 years old. And I think it’s going to be a great year for me. I have a place in the city, good friends nearby, jobs that pay, and a body that can hike up mini-mountains, run 3 miles(okay, walk and run 3 miles) and go on long walks at the beach...let me prove it to you:
(jumping on the mountain!)
(we ran to a bakery...and picked up some buns for dinner...this is me showing mine off:)
I had to talk myself into joining 24hour a little more. Money is tight right now, and so I am stressing out about "extraneous expenses." But it's only $18 a month, and if I want to stop the membership after a month, I can. And I need some classes and weights.
HOLY GOODNESS IT'S ALMOST FEBRUARY!!
I did not see that coming! Soon and very soon, I will be starting to train for the Shamrock Run, my 5k in Mid-March. Right now I'm just randomly running around Portland, getting to know the city better, but when I start training I will be a little more disciplined about distance and length of runs.
Then I'll be ready for a marathon....just kidding! Yeah, not running more than 20 miles. It goes against my religion:)
My roomie and I had our families over for dinner tonight, and I found myself saying that the secret to my success is "eat less, move more." Doesn't that sound simple? It is infuriatingly not so. It is difficult sometimes and stressful and makes me feel vulnerable and scared, but it is something I do for myself. Not for the approval of others, not for society, but for me.
Thanks for reading my ramblings. Stayed tuned in for more frequent updates.
Friday, January 22, 2010
- I need to weigh-in. Every week, on the same scale. And I don't own one...and don't really want to own one either.
- I need the weights. I can do some workouts at home, but it's great to have all the machines accessible.
- If it's truly awful weather, I can run inside.
- It makes sense to invest money into my health. And if I use the gym 3 times a week, it's only $2per visit.
- Mapquest says the nearest 24 is 3 minutes away. Come on.
- Some of my friends work out at 24, so I would have some motivation from them to work-out!
- Classes can be really fun!
- And I haven't tried Zumba yet!
- I can always cancel it during the summer if I want to spend more time outside.
- Because I am worth a gym membership.
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
Hi. It’s been a while. Which might be sad for my waist line....but I'm pretty happy. You see, I have been commuting to both of my odd-houred jobs 6 days a week for the past few months...and when I say commuting, I mean 18 miles...one way. Suckface.
But you are now reading the words of an apartment inhabiter in one of the best cities ever, Portland! Woot woot! I am less than 4 miles away from both jobs, I will be living with two of the coolest people in my life, and I finally have a use for those Moroccan carpets I was sold in Fez....long story....that makes me look bad...I am such a pushover...nope, moving on:)
The last few days have been hectic as I pack, find furniture, change addresses, and stress about life changing.
Because, as we all know, even good change can be a little scary. I am ready to leave my parent's house(again), I need to be closer to work, I love the city and the people, but...
What I can't afford to pay my student loans now that I have rent and groceries? What if I suck at buying and cooking myself healthy food? (I've lived on my own before, just not while eating healthy) What if my hours get cut at work and I can’t afford rent?
Do you notice the theme? Money. Yikes. I like having money to do things I want to do, but I hate having to stress about it. So I’m going to create a budget, manage my money, and maybe take that cute accountant who comes into my coffeeshop out for a “money management” date:)
Hmmmm. I was wondering if 194.5lbs was too good to be true. Last night I weighed in and was 196lbs. Which is still awesome! I have lost 48lbs! But it is up from the last weigh-in. My goal is to rock this week and weigh-in at 194.5 again next tuesday(at a new gym no less!)
I won’t be close to my community fitness center after this week, so I am stepping it up and joining a big girls gym...a place I find very intimidating...and dark...but that has good equipment and classes...I’m talking about 24hour Fitness. It’s the Hollister of gyms to me. Dark entrance, I don’t know if I belong, and there is funny smell being pumped out the front:)
But I know I need a gym to go to while it is still winter, so I’m investing the $20 or so a month in my health. Because I deserve it.
I was in a circuit class the other day, and had a realization. I was at a station where you are stepping up on an aerobics step, kicking out your leg, and then repeating. There were two steps to chose from. One was higher off the ground.
That’s the one I chose. And as I was sweating and kicking and wishing for water or a break, I realized how far I have come. I am almost 50lbs lighter than last summer. I can move and push and jump! I can take on the big step, and I should take on the big step. My playing small does not serve the world.
Going for what I want and need, striving for excellence, being happy, joyful, and helpful, that is what serves the world, and myself, best.
It’s mid January. I know we all have goals, resolutions, that are starting to get difficult. Recommit. Find the passion, remember your reasons, and know that you are capable. Ask for help and celebrate every little milestone, every little victory (although maybe not with 5 margaritas and brownies...because celebration throwing up is never fun:)
*title of post inspired by this hilarious skit.
Saturday, January 16, 2010
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
Sunday, January 10, 2010
--Don't beat yourself up if you "cheat."--
Hey, everyone occasionally has an off day, when, say the desire to eat a few ... okay, 10... chocolate chip cookies gets the better of us. When that happens, says Dr. Oz, don't brow-beat yourself. Instead, "recognize your mistake and recognize what led to your mistake, then get back on track." Some of Dr. Oz's quick and easy suggestions for getting back on the program -- and feeling better about your progress: Take a five-minute walk, toss out a calorie-rich or otherwise unhealthy food you're still holding on to (like the rest of that bag of cookies); write out your meal plan for tomorrow. "Doing something small and easily attainable, keeps you moving in the right direction," he says.
Thursday, January 7, 2010
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Your playing small doesn’t serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you."
My playing small does not serve the world. It is my responsibility to live my life the best and healthiest way I can. I have a fully functioning body that can accomplish amazing feats...if I push myself. If I embrace my potential and fabulousity:)
So here is to a FABULOUS new year, playing big, and knowing when to take half a meal home. Happy 2010:)